this love of ours;
is so sad it makes me laugh today,
Sunday, July 5, 2009
The Night at the Oasis Club party; 11:32 PM
Tonight,there is a party at the oasis club but i tells Saloma i don't wan to go.She tells me that this is our one-year anniversary.She also tell me that tonight she will sing and dance with me,and tomorrow she will follow me and go see the doctor.So i decide to go for this party.Later,we go to the party.It is very crowded.I feel very down as i am very afaid to acknowledge other people.Saloma want to cheer me up by asking to dance with her but i don't want.Then.some people pull away Saloma when i am dancing.Suddenly,i feel very panic as Saloma is missing.So i run back home.After reaching home,i feel very restless as i cannot contact Saloma.I starts to dance,taking my clothes and start throwing things around.Ok,Goodbye
Today is a bad day; 11:00 PM
Same as everytime,i meet Saloma at the void deck .We start chatting nicely but suddenly for some reason,we start to quarrel .I start shouting at her and she starts to cry.After that,we just go home.After going home,i feel very gulity because i should not shout at Saloma and also making her cry.So i call her and apologise to her,hoping she can forgive me.She is very good to me as she never blames me for shouting at her and making her cry,she only tell me whether i want her to follow me to see doctor or not.Ok,i write till here.
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
In the Void deck; 8:28 AM
Today,a lot of things happened.I called Saloma today.asking her to come to my void deck.She came to my void deck and started to tell me all the things that happened recently.She told me that she had went to the police station to ask about how is catching of the thief and also apply for a job last week.But,it was unsuccessful as she is an ex-mental patient.Then,we started to talk about things,like the promises that we had made.Then,while we were talking,Mr Razali appeared.i asked where were him during the robbery angrily.He told me that he went upstairs on that day because thee got people complaint.Next moment,i started to quarrel with him.After he was gone,i told Saloma a lots of things about God.After telling her all these god stuff,i felt angry with the whole world so i walked away.Next moment i knew,i was fired by my boss,he found out that i am a ex-patient.I told Saloma this when she called me.I felt so angry and i told her that i don't care anymore.No point finding a company that that have people like Mr Chow,everyday i live in fear ,wondering when the boss going to find out.Everytime time about this,make feel angry.Ok,i write till here.Goodbye
One to three week have passed; 8:09 AM
During all this week,a lots of things had happened.I started to feel that all the songs were noise.All sounds,hollow.Sometimes i would put on my army boots and look at myself in the mirror.i would start jumping,facing down on my bed and holding my pillow as a rife.i would start to move back and forth and start to shoot at my enemies.I keep doing this until my body became limp and i felt asleep.This was what things i did during these week.Ok,Goodbye
; 7:56 AM
Today,i woke up in the morning,i started to think of a lots of questions and kept asking myself.Then,i went to my telephone and disconnected it.i went to my radio and unplugged it.Actually,not much things happen today so nothing much to talk about.Goodbye
Emily Gan comes to my dream today; 6:50 AM
Hi ,today i had a strange dream.In my dream,i met a friend of Saloma,her name was called Emily Gan.She told me a lots of things about me,telling me that i am special,my mind was beautiful and many more,After chatting for a while,she brought me to Saloma's room and Saloma was there sleeping.That was my first time to see Saloma's room. Her room was very nice.Then,after talking with Emily for a few minutes,she say she need to go and she wants me to remember three things.Datta.Dayadhvam.Damyata which mean Give.Sympathise.Control.After that, she ask me whether she can take my blue hanger and she was gone.That was what happened in my dream,so weird.Ok,got to go,bye.
Today,my madness have come back; 6:19 AM
Hi,i am Vinod.Today.i went to look for my best friend,Saloma.While we chatting at the void deck,suddenly,a robber appeared out of blue and was holding a knife which is pointing at saloma.I felt very shocked and don't know what to do,so i let out a scream.The robber was scared so he ran off.I kept screaming even though the robber was gone.Saloma calm me down and we went back home.
